BEHIND CREATIVE BALANCE

My aim with Creative Balance is to bring authentic value and embrace all aspects of “Self” – be it personally, through business or even on a spiritual level. Creative Balance is about allowing your aspirations which lead to your achievements become your inevitable successes.

Below is some of my story that highlights my determination, my passion and why Creative Balance was the end result…

 

As a teenager I was an aspiring performer. I choreographed routines, sang for hours and struggled to fit into a country town culture. Whilst my ambitions were to pursue performing, within a blink of an eye I found myself doing, in no better terms, ‘secretarial studies’. To me, this was the worst possible scenario however, as I noticed the years pass me by the pay seemed to mildly compensate for not living my dreams.

After five years I went into finance and human resources as I had thought that climbing the corporate ladder to the glass ceiling was the best way to create the life I wanted. It was with the anticipation of a life full of freedom and options. This however, was not what happened. Over the years I gained a lot of knowledge, experience and skills in running businesses in a multitude of industries. I assisted many businesses evolve, grow and become what they had the potential to become holding my first senior management role at the age of 24 in a company of three hundred, however, the essence of who I was had not even come close to being satisfied.

I didn’t give my passions priority. I treated them as a hobby and it was all about the resume. I studied accordingly. I found myself working 80+ hour weeks and struggled to have any life outside of work.  Yet, all the while the little things that were part of who I was kept slipping through, irrelevant of how I fought to fit a mold that I wasn’t.

Yet, there is a darker layer to my story. All the while I suffered depression, severe depression. I had been suffering from it since my teenage years. Going back twenty plus years ago this was classified having mood swings and was not even considered an illness. I used writing as a tool to release some of the torment I felt, however, when travelling on a downward spiral at some point I had to hit the bottom.

Eight years ago I had a nervous breakdown. The kind of breakdown where all hope is lost and the only thing I wanted to do was to leave this life. It even got to the point of having my jars of varying medications lined up on my coffee table. Yet, through the compassion of a stranger I am here today.

From my breakdown I took it as a turning point and I recreated myself; in some way reconnected to who I was all those years ago. I had been so convinced that I needed to be how I was told to be, making others happy and often being the wallflower that sat in complete sullen despair hoping for the day, the week; the year to end.

The extent of what I changed over this time included my name, disassociating with all relatives, throwing out everything I owned for the last twenty years and even changing my career. I did courses upon courses in search of this person that I had spent so much time with. I studied yoga, meditation, reiki, metaphysics, paganism, paranormal, diet and herbs, human resources, accounting, fitness then to coaching, timeline therapy, NLP, behavioural profiling, management, leadership, training and even completed my Masters (in writing).

One of the biggest lessons I learned was that growth is about doing what feels right from within, deep within. To take this even further, to live congruently is to do what feels right from deep within. You have everything you could possibly need within and once you trust this there is no such thing as can’t. The only ‘can’t’ that exists is the one that you allow yourself to create.

When I was 23 I decided to take up gymnastics, as I never had the opportunity to do this when I was little. So for the next five years I did gymnastics.

Ten years ago I took up the piano because I always wanted to know how to play it and again never had the opportunity as a child. Now I am up to grade 5 in my AMEB.

My life has been far from easy. I have found myself being molested by my ex’s stepfather, in abusive relationships, beaten, used, disregarded and even drugged to find myself fighting off someone I thought was a friend. Last year I found out that after everything I am not even related to the family I grew up with.

One thing I know for sure is to never give up. The more you know yourself, the more you know what you are made of, the more strength you find to fight another day. The more courage you find within yourself to stand up for that which matters to you. It is aligning to your core values, which is the very basis of who you are as a person. For me it is integrity, respect, loyalty and living with compassion, passion and being open to unconditional love.

Today, aside a multitude of qualifications and 20 years experience, I have published five books, I write for numerous sites and have a monthly column in two, I recorded the song I wrote for my wedding, I sang Phantom of the Opera in front of 2000 people, I have trekked in Nepal by myself, I have a mean roundhouse kick, I can still do bridges (back bends) and I still write songs. I have an ability to travel between metaphysical planes, know things that lack any logic and communicate with things that cannot be seen. I have a successful business that I built and I do what I love every day. I am extremely passionate, I have a family I will protect with all that I am and most of all, I walk in my truth every single day.

I coach from the very essence of who I am as a person and each client gets me in 110% capacity. I come from a place of authenticity in all I do because I have no reason to lie. None of my story is fabricated or written to sound impressive – it is all fact. That is who I am and I can substantiate everything right down to being able to do the splits right now, if I was asked.

Whilst this may be deemed ‘old school’ it is the very foundation on which I run my business and the very essence of what I bring to every single client that I help.  I may not know how it feels from their perspective but it is extremely likely it has come across my path at some point. It is for this reason that I never judge and I coach without ego.

We all have a story to tell and this is some of mine. Sometimes it is nice to know that the person sitting opposite you that is helping you to be all you can be knows what it is like to be on the other side and can relate to living life in varying degrees. This is a bit about the background of the face behind Creative Balance.

Because I have done this for me I know, if you are open to change, I can do it for you.

Isn’t it about time you lived the way you have always wanted to?